10 MORE Things That Suck About the Drug Culture!

As much as I like to think that drugs are the answer to all of life's problems, if I'm being realistic about it, there are definitely a lot of things that suck about the drug culture. As I'm sitting here pinning over the fact that I'm not using meth, ("Oh poor me, I can only slam heroin all day long and get stoned." Life sucks. Yeah, I know how lame that sounds.) I figured I'd focus my energy elsewhere. So,  ready or not... the second incarnation of Things I Hate About the Drug Culture!

1. People who don't think that they're junkies just because they don't mainline, or even use heroin. 

This guy knows what's up.

If you are addicted to opiates, you are a junky. Pure and simple. You don't need to IV to be a junky. You don't even have to use
heroin to be a junky. If you are addicted to Oxycotin, Methadone, Morphine, Vicodine or Codeine, you're a junky. But if you are addicted to Vicodine or Codeine, you should probably switch to something that doesn't have Tylenol. Otherwise, you will fuck up your kidney's permanently. Either that, or do what I do when I suddenly find myself with 25-75 Vicodine. Do a cold water extraction. The taste is bitter, but it's fairly simple and you remove all of the Tylenol. But don't kid yourself about being a junky. If your day revolves around how and when you are able to cop and use opiates of any sort, you are a junky.

2. People who go on Methadone maintenance but continue to use heroin, yet still tell you that they're quitting. 
No you're not. Methadone intensifies the heroin high. If you are using both you aren't following the program. You are just getting more bang for your buck. So if you do find you are using less to start, it's just because you need less. But that tolerance will go up as well, and then you'll be addicted to two different opiates and a Methadone detox takes much longer. You are just hurting yourself, and you're not fooling anyone.

3. Actually... Methadone in general is a pet peeve of mine. Especially when people try to push Methadone on you when it's
easy enough to go to a Suboxone doctor to get a script. Suboxone has so many advantages over Methadone. Suboxone removes the ability to get high, or at least makes it much more difficult. (I've certainly circumnavigated the effects of Suboxone with enough heroin, but that option is not financially feasible long term.) You can't OD on Subxone. It's much easier to ween yourself off of and doesn't require medical supervision. If you are serious about quitting, Suboxone is by far the best option. And don't be nervous about going to the doctor just because you're a junky. That's what the Suboxone doctor is there for. He had to go through specialized training just to be able to prescribe Suboxone. He is sympathetic to the needs of IV drug users, otherwise he wouldn't have bothered to go through all that hassle. And with all the money you are saving from cutting out your largest expense, you should definitely be able to pull together some cash for a doctors visit.

One thought keeps leading to the next today...

4. Doctors who AREN'T sympathetic to the unique needs of IV drug users. You took the Hippocratic Oath. You made a promise to treat ALL patients and to act in their best interest. It's like some doctors just don't consider junkies people. One time, the hospital advertised for the treatment of abscesses and other drug related problems. But when I went in to have multiple abscesses looked at, I was given ample amounts of attitude and was told it was my own fault. Yeah, well... I know that. But I'm still  here and I still need treatment.

(Side Note: After that incident, we just started treating abscesses ourselves. It's easy enough to do. Just keep draining it and sanitizing it. You can even buy the appropriate antibiotics from an online pet store. The exact same antibiotics they prescribe for abscesses are used for birds and fish.  You just need to calculate the correct dosage.)

Another time I went to the ER for something totally unrelated to my drug use. Once the doctor saw my track marks, he told me I had a stroke due to my drug use (by the way.... I was trying to quit at the time, so I hadn't used in a couple of weeks). He wouldn't touch me - it was like I was a leper or something. He barely spoke to me - just about me loudly to the other medical staff. He wouldn't even consider that it could be anything else. He almost demanded that I stay in the hospital to be monitored - even after the CAT scan results came back negative. I've rarely met anyone so thickheaded, stubborn and self righteous. By the way, after a second opinion, it turned out I just had some nerve damage in my shoulder. I have never felt so subjugated and menial. A doctor should never make you feel that way - no matter what life choices you make.

5. Cigarettes are still a drug, so I'm including this one.... People who want to ban the use or sale of e-cigarettes. This is so infuriating it makes my blood boil. E-cigs have helped countless people quit smoking. New York wanted to ban them because people might view smoking as social acceptable. Since when does the government have any right to dictate what is social acceptable? In Los Angeles, they are banned anywhere smoke is. So I'm not allowed to walk my dog in the large outdoor park next to my apartment (Pershing Square, DTLA). That's completely insane. No one is allergic to them. No one can smell them. They aren't bad for your breathing. They cause zero pollution. It's WATER VAPOR people! I should be able to smoke an e-cig in a airplane if I want. (I'm not. I tried the last time I flew. You can do it in the bathroom though. No one will ever know because they don't actually smoke!) People have called them started cigarettes. Total Bullshit. No kid is going to think that e-cigs are "cooler" to start than regular cigarettes. But even if that was the case, the government cracked down on flavored tobacco because it was more appealing to kids. So if  you must, do the same thing with e-cigs. Ban all the disgusting fruity flavors. But don't try to make them out to be worse than regular cigarettes! Alright, nuf said about that. But... if "they" win and e-cigs are banned, I'm suing someone.

6. People who can't handle their acid. Unfortunately, I find this happens much more with women than with men. I took some acid on a plane ride once with my boyfriend. When we were partying later that night - with one of these girls - she gave us an unusually hard time about taking the acid on the plane. She kept rambling on and on about how terrible it would be, blah, blah, blah. I felt like I had to defend my actions. It brought the whole trip down. Why shouldn't I do that? Just because you flip out and become crazy on LSD? Let me trip how and where I want. That same girl, along with another one of her friends, also tried to suck me into this conversation about how you just "need a good cry" on LSD. What? No I don't. Why would I want to do that? Leave me alone, don't pull me into your bad trip. I love LSD. All the time. In any situation.



7. People who only do psychedelics for the "spiritual experience". I had been trying to get my best friend to take mushrooms with me forever. Turns out her psycho boyfriend kept feeding her all these lines about how they should only be used to experience a higher plain of existence. Finally I talked her into to taking some at a show with me. She loved it and it wasn't a spiritual experience at all. Sure, I like to use psychedelics in that manner too sometimes. But more often than not, I use them for fun. It does't need to be this whole big religious ceremony to "properly" experience them. They are recreational drugs, after all. This is something you see A LOT of in the DMT community. Many people on DMT Nexus will be happy to preach to you about the only "right" way too use DMT. It's all horse manure. Use psychedelics any way you want. Personally, I think a balance between recreation and spiritual mind expansion gives you the best of both worlds.

8. People on the streets who pressure you to buy from their guy. They will either try to 1.) collect a fee. Or, 2.) ask for a cut of your stash. Leave me alone. Stop following me. I'm not giving you anything. Chances are, if I'm out scoring on the streets, I don't have a dollar more than what I'm trying to spend on drugs. Yes, I know I stick out like a sore thumb trolling the streets of Skid Row. It's like the lyrics from that Lou Reed song "I'm Waiting For My Man" - "Everybody's pinned you and nobody cares". Everyone knows what I'm doing down there. The same thing that everyone else is doing. But just because I'm white and female, people think they can make a dollar off of me, or get a free fix. Junk is not cheap on the streets. One balloon will  barely get you well. There is no way I'm going to split my balloon with you. Scram. Leave me alone. I'll find it myself.
 
9. Old addicts who want to impart their wisdom on you. I have come across this countless times. Last week at the needle exchange some old guy was yapping about how I shouldn't use 29 gauge needles. I told him I have small veins, so a small needle does less damage in the long run. He went on and on about how if I would just go for a run everyday I wouldn't have that problem. Or that I should shower before I use, yadda, yadda, yadda. First, going for a run is not going to magically make my veins bigger. My problem isn't circulation.... actually I don't have a problem. I just have veins that are different than yours, so I do things a little differently. I don't need your old junky wisdom. Once, a lady actually tried to pull a needle out of my hand while I was attempting a shot, because she knew that she could hit it better. That's absolutely not cool. Besides the glaring fact that I know nothing about your hygiene or what diseases you might have... I  know my veins inside and out, what works and what doesn't. If you think you see something that will work better, chances are I've tried it and it doesn't. I'm not some doe eyed innocent who happened to find herself on the floor of a bathroom in a homeless shelter on skid row with a needle sticking out of her arm. I promise, you won't find a vein any easier that I will.

10. People who use NA as a substitute for their addiction. You see them in every meeting. They are usually the first ones to talk, the loudest ones in the room, and the ones who refuse the believe that anything but this program can work for anyone. Sure one addiction might be better for your health and have a lower risk of death then the other one. But don't fool yourself into thinking you are more evolved than the addicts who still struggle with drugs. NA is not the solution for everyone. Just because it worked for you, doesn't make it scripture. Nobody's addiction is the same. We use for different reasons. We quit for different reasons. Our rock-bottoms are all different. No cookie-cutter program will work for everyone. I don't want to substitute taking drugs with talking about not taking drugs. I know NA has helped a great number of people. I personally am thankful for it. But if you are just substituting one life-consuming addiction for another, are you really in recovery? Shouldn't the goal be to life that's not centered around drugs?

Along those same line- I'll just make this little addition about NA. People who use NA to wield power over others and take advantage of their authority over new comers. I knew this one guy who used to lie all the time in NA . I heard him tell the same stories time and time again, but with different endings, depending on the point he was trying to make. He was trying to use real-life examples of what would happen if you didn't follow the program as it was designed. He was misleading a very vulnerable group of people.  Some people use NA as a substitute for what is now missing in their lives. And some people need to feel powerful. If they are powerless over their drug use, they will find power somewhere else. Let me tell you something Mr. Big Shot. Having power over people who are trying to get clean for the first time is not impressive. They are probably the most vulnerable, least confident, easy to manipulate group of people there is. Why don't you volunteer at an ICU for infants? Would  that make you feel powerful? They're just about as easy to control as the newly clean trying to pickup the shattered pieces of their broken lives. They want to believe anything you tell them if it comes with the promise of a better life. Don't use your leadership position to control others. That's an addiction in itself. And the worst part was that so many of the "lessons" he was trying to teach were complete hogwash. Like, if you drink non-alcoholic beer, within the night you'll be slamming dope.

Again, a disclaimer: I have found NA to be very helpful and I don't belittle all the wonderful things that it was done for people in recovery. But like any organization that is run by humans, it's not perfect. But the world is certainly a better place because of it's existence.
Pft. I could keep going, but I think I'll end my little rant here. I actually do feel much better.

Silk Road Pt 3.

This the 3rd edition of my Silk Road posts!

So let's talk mushrooms. Those which are hallucinogenic in nature that is.... My strategy up until the Silk Road, was to stock up with any many as possible through out festie and tour season and try to accumulate enough to last me all fall winter, until the next heattie show came along with a good lot. This time, I decided to test out the product on the Silk Road - which I still plan on doing more of. Actually I want to start growing them, but that's a different story.

All the mushrooms – which were already a good price – from the Netherlands were about say 15bc. (I’m rough guessing the prices here since it doesn’t really matter - but at the time it was about 3bc =$1). Then there was this one guy offering his for almost half of that AND he shipped from the states, so free shipping! (and hopefully faster) I think standard shipping is always free within the states - at least it used to be. Although some sellers do offer the expedited shipping, that can be risky too. Not always a good idea to be able to track your drugs. And you don't want to have to sign for them and have proof floating out there somewhere that you signed for a package of Back Tar Heroin of whatever.  So despite the massive difference in price AND knowing the best product comes from the Netherlands (again in the category) we bought ½ oz of them. But it wasn't enough money to shed a tear over if something did go wrong. Sure enough, almost the next day they were there.  
 

***Here I am going to add a slight disclaimer. My view may be slightly askew due to an overuse, both long term (about 2 decades) and really heavy short term use (previous 6 months – a few times a week) to psychedelics. Clearly this will affect tolerance of each drug in and of itself, but should NOT produce cross-over tolerance between most of them. Although it has been theorized and some case studies have shown that certian RC's may produce slight cross tolerance between other psychedelics, mushrooms have never been included in those studies. Still, we did take an entirely different batch of mushrooms the weekend before and didn’t trip either. But the legitimacy of that product was never confimred. Although they looked, smelled, tasted and felt like legitimate shrooms, without at least another person verifying their potency, I couldn't make a blanket statement in either direction as to whether they were "real" or not.***

They came vacuum sealed and everything looked solid. Once I received them I let the seller know. He requested that I release the funds, which I was hesitant to do, since I hadn't tried them yet, but my last few transactions were so smooth, I figured "why not?". I gave the required 5 star but wrote "WAITING TO SAMPLE PRODUCT. WILL POST REVIEW IN FORUM WHEN VERIFIED."
We took them about 2 hours before and EOTO show in Tahoe, which was right across the street. We had with high expectations after such disappointing experiences with tripping on anything for the last 2 months. By the time we had to leave – all hope was abandoned. They never kicked in. We had all the effects of being on mushrooms without any of the actual visuals/body buzz/ euphoria/giddiness/tripping. So they had ALL of the slight uncomfortable feelings associated with mushies, slight tummy upset, desire to curl up in bed, bizarre equilibrium effect, social awkwardness, which usually passes in 30 minutes, transforming into social glee and laughter for me. But this lasted for the next few hours, with none of the fun side effects.  I know that Golden Teachers can vary in potency and strength – and obviously we both have an extremely high tolerance for pretty much all drugs in general. Maybe we could have tried more but we ate a lot to begin with. We don't shy away from those challenges. But with all of the positive reviews of this product, I was/am slightly suspicious that they hadn’t worked right off the bat. So, I figured I would give them to my bff who has no tolerance for this kinda thing at all, just to make sure that they didn’t work.  Haven’t heard anything about them from her yet (doubt I will now since she’s since “broken up" with me after 14 years, bitch). Hope they didn't work out for her either. Knowing her - she probably got freaked out by them and thew them away - whatever. Who cares. If I want to put a spike in my arm, that's my business.  Anyway - back to the Silk Road...

So - we got some more mushroom locally and decided to hold off trying them until our bodies were purged of psychedelics drugs. Even though there's supposedly no cross tolerance between L/Shrooms/RC’s etc. I've quite a bit of experience that would suggest otherwise, specifically with 2C products and that’s not supposed to happen either. The seller is still selling and the ratings are still coming in that they are high quality. So the rating system is clearly not a foolproof system. Or I was just a special case, and really need to cool off on my psychedelic drug intake. (which I have).

So I'm still winning the game overall - but it's by no means a sweep, with the SR scoring +2 points on me in the custie'd category.  Again, I made a mistake in judgment basing my decision on price and not taking a step back and looking at the bigger picture – why were they so cheap?? Why would I by from the state when I know they are sub-par to the Netherlands? Lesson Learned.

Next Purchase - MDMA – One of the best deals on the Silk Road

So again so time passes with a few smooth (even fun and enjoyable) transactions. Communication can be hit or miss with the sellers, but the product was always good, even if not always 100% accurate – at least effective.  And that’s all I ask for, really ;-)

All the MDMA experiences have actually worked out really well for me – even if it was weird. I f ound a great guy selling MDMA in Molly form and tested about as high as possible on the Reagent test, 84%.  It came in a standard time frame, great package, packaged as directed, good communication, A+ all around. Strike that, A++++++++++ when the next package came. A week after we took and had a BLAST on the amazing product, another shipment from the same town but different address came. Another bag of Mahl!  Okay – well that’s weird. This is my third shipment of mysterious, un-paid for drugs, only one of which was bad. I didn’t ask him about it because I didn’t want to raise any red flags, but we decided to take it anyway (contents unconfirmed) and rolled tits. So that was that and then I pretty much stopped thinking about that transaction. 

It was so good though, that we wanted another order ASAP for my birthday.  Fast forward 2-3 weeks later. I placed another order and as I mentioned earlier, I always place 3-6 items at a time. I had ordered a bag of 2C-E. I didn’t know the EXACT address it was supposed to come from but I remember it was at least some place on that side of the world (Netherlands).  In the appropriate time frame- a bag from the Netherlands (again) came with a baggie of unmarked clear white powder, 1 gr. 

Now, it makes sense that no one labels their drugs in the mail when they ship. And typically people don’t use their own home address, or at least their exact (or detailed) addresses, but it certainly makes it frustrating when you place multiple orders and are dealing with product that is similar in color and bitterness -like many RC's being sold today.  It gets confusing.  Then add the fact that 15mgs of one can flip your world upside down for 15 hours and be close to a dangerous overdose, and 20mgs - your pushing daisies, you need to be careful!

I decided to hold on to the bag for a little bit and see if maybe the other product would be easier to recognition. Strangely, I wound up with 4 random bags of white powder. Supposedly from two different sellers, but who knows maybe really coincidentally they worked together in conjunction on the Silk Road?

Now I had my entire order of products. The Mahly was the same fantastic roll. The 2C-E was awesome and combined with LSD, they make the Universe's hetty'est cocktail :)
but I'm still left with the unanswered question of "Where are all of these free drugs coming from?? And more importantly WHO IS SENDING THEM TO ME!!! Can all of this possibly be a dissociated string of coincidences? Doesn’t seem likely.
I did take the "risk" blindly sampling one of the random bags - turned out to be 2C-I and I tripped face off of it, quite a few times. Still have some actually - was going to save some for this NYE.
So there is nothing I can say about that specific mailing that would point to a conclusion. I'm really doubt I'll get an answer to any of this, but at least I came out the winner - I guess?  Over all I have wound up with way more drugs than I had actually purchased, but they were all legitimate, so  again – if the Universe wants to send me free drugs through mail order – who am I to complain? But still the whole thing can be hit or miss, and although appreciated, I’m always a little apprehensive when the random bags arrive. And although there have been a couple of orders where the seller has then disappeared, despite a large number of positive reviews, the overall success rate has me coming back. After all, it still beats the number of times I've been ripped off IRL copping on the streets or at Shakedown at a show. So I'll keep coming back!

One of the most common questions I receive about the Silk Road is "How does the pricing compare?" Well, that is completely dependent on what your are buying and where you live.

). Here is a general breakdown by most popular categories:

Psychedelics (Of all sorts - L, shrooms, RCs etc.): Normally much cheaper than I can find in and around California.
**Side besides my less than successful purchase of shrooms from the states, most shrooms almost always come from the Netherlands - this is a great (although not foolproof) way of securing a high quality product. I've honestly found this to be true for most products purchased from there – The Netherlands take the quality of their drugs seriously!**

Dissociative (Ketamine, MXE, PCP): Comparatively equal.  So I found no value in purchasing them through the Silk Road- unless you are unable to procure locally, or they just aren’t available in your area for some reason

Uppers - Depends.
Coke - Much pricier on SR but might be worth if for quality. They have a variety of EXTREMELY Superior coke available. But you’re gonna have to pay! (worth it IMHO)

Meth/Adderall - About the same locally. It's dirt cheap everywhere.

GHB:  Cheaper if you can buy in quantity.

MDMA - Seems to be the best overall Street/SR ratio. Really dirt cheap compared to the street value in Los Angeles. Also - ALWAYS (at least in my experience thus far) they have been highly superior to what you can buy on the streets. Since it’s almost all from the Netherlands (if it’s not, don’t buy it) you can still find early 90's standard ecstasy and they don't pass this shit "Molly" off as real AND it almost always comes with a Reagent Test results.

Opiates –

Heroin – This is an interesting one. When I started shopping on the Silk Road it was one of the best deals around. At least the Heroin was. It was much cheaper than Los Angeles street prices . You could go higher in value and buy China White or other super quality H when they had it - for much higher, but it WAS a rare commodity, Now #4 Heroin is littering the Silk Road. So it’s up to you and what you can get in your town as to whether it’s “worth it” or not. Maybe you are from the West Coast and get white powder in a stamp bag – you might be willing to buy at a higher price than someone who can get it on par or cheaper than the SR. Or you’ve never tried Mexican Black Tar, it would be in your best interest to give it a go an buy some at $100+ a gram, just to give it a shot over on the east coast. Yadda yadda, you get my drift.

Scripts - ALL OPIATE PRESCRIPTIONS ON SR ARE NOT WORTH IT. They may be high quality (and you can get OC's vs. OP's) but you will be prison rape on the price. Hands down one of the biggest rip offs - if you can secure elsewhere. But they are counting on getting the people who are uncomfortable buying from the streets or purchasing H at all. RE: Think your local soccer mom.

Opium – Completely hit or miss if they have it. They will go through dry spells of months at a time and then have 3 or 4 dealers at once selling. In my opinion, because of its scarcity.... if it's available, buy it! I've never had fake opium or anything that was sub-par quality from the SR, and when I do buy, I'll buy in bulk, just because I don't know when it's going to go away or come back again, and I love having it around. I had a guy I was buying from at a fairly expensive, but not outrageous price on SR, but he told me he had to close shop because the processing of the opium was getting way to expensive.  

Other – This “Other” category is very vague - anything else really. HGH's are one of the more popular- but I won't know how to compare prices - I think it's really high in demand though, because the stock seems endless and current. Psych drugs off all sorts, sleeping pills, barbiturates, ludes, crazy types of benzo’s etc.

I bought some Phenobarbital, randomly one day because I saw it and seemed to be a reasonably good price (actually dirt cheap) and isn't offered frequently in my circles - so that was worth it. I've been searching high and low to find Methaqualone, but have only found substitutes like Ettaqualone, but it's a crap shoot. You never know what random obscure drug that you've always wanted to try (or never heard of that piques your interest) so it's hit or miss. It seems that (like the ones I've mentioned above) since they are sold all over the world - to the point of abuse - across different countries, they will eventually be available to us at some point through the SR - so if there is some pill or drug you can’t find right away – keep checking in and be diligent. It’s most likely going to show up one day. And then it will be there for a day or two – or it might spark a new trend and gain its own category. You never know what’s going to happen!

So in conclusion to the pricing questions, I purchase by the following criteria that is important to me: price, local availability, quality vs price, dealer rating and perhaps novelty (like the Phenobarbital).

Hopefully that helps answer some of the questions you've had about the Silk Road and how that website works, what's available and how to buy, etc. As I mentioned, my next SR installment will be more technically driven and focus more on Tor, security, bitcoins etc. Please drop me comment if there is something specific you want addressed around those categories, and I'll try to get those questions answered first!

Hope everyone is having a great holiday vacation!!

❤ ☮ & ♪♬

My Silk Road Experience - Part 2

Still being fresh to the Silk Road, I paid for the vile through PayPal in cash. It was also cheaper than the other viles. Although he did say that was because a lot of people were uneasy with the no escrow. He was also in partnership with the chemist and doing this at the cheapest price. So while my first bitcoin transaction was processing, I went ahead with it. Also, I remember I ordered this the morning that we left for the Gorge, and I wanted to make sure it was here in time for Dicks – ruling out the Bowl and Tahoe since they were too soon. Anyway, I was easy able to get a sheet of acid in the meantime from a local acid dealer. Side note to all acid dealers out there I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! This seller, just like the rest of the psychedelic dealers I know out there was all about spreading the love. This wasn’t about the money – all they want to do in this world is spread the love and glory of acid! You are all living on a higher spiritual plane, and I sincerely thank you for spreading the love and the beauty of acid – while taking a huge risk in the process! He didn’t consider himself a “drug dealer” and neither do I. Acid dealers share mind opening experiences. There’s no money, not for the dealer and not for the chemist, only the desire to spread the joy of LSD. So THANK YOU ALL! That is why you are all loved in my book! Many hugs and kisses from me to you *MAWH
Anyway, he was also super good in communicating and keeping me updated on the shipment and since it was my first time, he was extremely patient and understanding of all my stupid questions. He was extremely helpful, teaching me the ropes and especially as the transaction got odd, he was must have been confused by me, but was always tolerant.

Listing for LSD including description, reviews, picture, price and shipping info.

So I soon got the shipping confirmation and was super stoked. The chemist (also located in the Netherlands) had shipped it out himself. I believe I got back on a Tuesday and it was supposed to take about a week and to arrive. But then when I checked my mail on Thursday, it had already arrived. Pretty odd. Can something arrive that quickly - 2 days! - from overseas? Also, it wasn’t a vile, like originally depicted in the posting. It was 225 Imodium pills, undisputedly hit with 3 drops of liquid each. The drops were clear as day. Someone went through the painstaking process of dosing each of those little pills, much like Altoids, with 3 distinct drops. I was skeptical, but there it was. Clearly.

At this point, despite the friendly open nature of the seller there are four red flags already thrown.

1. The cheapest acid on the SR by far for the quantity (although that could have been caulked up to bulk purchasing and dealing direct with the chemist)
2. PayPal Required – not Bitcoins. Waving any right for escrow and an instant loss of money
3. Did NOT come as described. Clearly stating in the ad a custom made glass vile. NOT PLAIN IMODIUM.
4. Shipment was lighting fast. But still clearly stamped from a Netherlands post office.

I emailed the guy to let him know I got it. He seemed happily surprised, but a little uneasy that it arrived so early. His real concern though was the pills. He still insisted that is should have been a vile and asked repeatedly if there was any way it could have been another order. I said no, because I had just deposited my first round of bitcoins and was in the process of making my second order of products, a bulk purchase of my products this time, since I had the desired funding. But he said he’d ask the chemist about that – he couldn’t verify because he never actually touched the product since the chemist prepped and shipped it. But I told him I’d let him know how it was when I tried it and post in his forum.

So that Friday night, both anxious and excited, I took them over to my boyfriends pad to try them out. Optimistically apprehensive, we both decided to take two at first. 6 doses, but we had been taking acid nonstop for practically the whole summer, if not the whole year. So we wanted to make sure we took a solid dose to be able to judge. First let me emphasis how absolutely VILE and HORRID these things were. It was the most disgusting thing I’ve ever put in my mouth. It was very hard to fight the urge not to spit it right now. If they were going negate on the vile – can’t they at least put in on something good? Some mints? Some gum? Anything besides these nasty pills that tasted like chalk and medicine and terribleness all in one. Oh it was bad.
But, I did my duty, and kept them in for quite a bit of time just to make sure that I got every last drop (just in case) before I swallowed it. Once swallowed the Imodium immediately made me terribly nauseous, foaming in my stomach. But whatever… I kept it down. I wasn’t about to give up good acid. Even though, any acid probably would have already been absorbed sublingually, I wasn’t going to risk it.

At this point I start thinking the worst. What I’d been stifling in my gut since they first arrived. “What a dumb ass, blindly ingesting something that I buy from some stranger on an illicit website. Who knows what those liquid drops could be. Probably not LSD.” But then really is that any different than buying from a stranger in a lot or maybe even the dumbest – from craigslist. Which I’ve done a million times when my dealers disappeared or fell through for other things. Oh well… the dead was done. At least we had both taken them.

And of course, those fears become reality as we wait and wait and wait. Feeling more like dumbasses with each tick from the clock. Luckily, we had some A+++++ Superior Canadian rolls left over from a concert and some MXE. Before we delved into the alternate stockpile, we did try one more pill just to make sure. All the while I was scream expletives at the devil that took the time to dose these nasty tasting things and send them half way around the globe to trick us, while using the most disgusting method of administration possible. Oh I was going to write a HEATED letter to the seller. Who knows, there is still some hope that he would respond and amends. But the chances were very slim and I knew that. But as we turned the night around with our stash of other drugs, we drafted the letter that I was going to send out the following morning. And as the other drugs hit in, our night did turn out wonderful, even though out mood was sheepish and foolish as we repeated over and over in our head what fools we were for ignoring all the warning signs.

I had almost no hope left when I finally sent the letter to the seller listing everything that went wrong with the order. Honestly, I was not expecting a reply. But shockingly I received a reply within only a few hours! There is good humanity left in the world! I knew I could count on my trusted acid dealers. ❤ His response sounded really shocked. All of his other customers had no complaints with the product, and he had originally thought it was odd that it would have arrived so early and not in the described packaging – but again – since he hadn’t shipped the order, he couldn’t confirm. So although he had no real explanation, he asked that I hold on for another week and see if anything else arrives, since the post really shouldn’t get to me for at least another week. I was encouraged by his response, but still didn’t really expect anything else to arrive. But I kept an open mind since his response did seem sincere. And his initial reaction was desire to be helpful.

That was a Monday. Wednesday I got another one of my orders that I had placed the week before with real bitcoins, in escrow- 3 types of DMT from Mexico. Each product was sampled upon arrival. (And then again and maybe once again… just to make sure ;-). All three products were straight from the 4th dimension! ﭢ Some of the best quality DMT I’ve had. And that seller was really awesome too. He makes his own product in Mexico and was detailed in each type’s description and variety. I still order from him to this day. I love his stuff.

DMT Listings from the Silk Road from today.

So my hopes for the Silk Road were lifted. There were at least SOME reliable and reputable sellers and I was going to find them. But then on Friday there was another package in the mail. Low and Behold! It was a vile of Acid! And it came exactly how it was described in the ad… which is good because the ad was super detailed. I let the dealer know immediately. And since he had been really excellent in communicating with me, I really wanted to give him a good rating, which I was able to do with no problem on his personal sellers forum. I wasted no time sampling and sharing, to get other people’s opinions. It was the real deal and I have 250 hits of it!! Jeeze – I think I blew through it in like 4 months. Along with two other full sheets and some random 10 strips and half viles collected randomly here and there within that time frame. I think I went through too much acid, lol.

But the question still remained… HOW and WHY on earth had that other mystery package arrived with the bogus pills??? It was especially weird since someone took the time to fake dose all those pills!! I can't image what someone was thinking when they thought of some dumb wookette trying to get spun on the worst tasting plain Imodium on the planet. It's like a joke now - I didn't get Custie'd I got Imodium'd. Lulz.

But the time and effort that was put into that scam is no joke and is mind boggling to me! Was it a warning that I was being watched? Just a practical joke? Another message of some sort? I am baffled still to this day, and no doubt will be for the rest of my life – one of those hopeless unsolved mysteries. I really doubt I’ll ever find out why or how that happened. Or what I’m the most curious about – By Who??

But that was not the last of the odd string of mailings that occurred after I started using the Silk Road. Weird things kept happening with each of the next few purchases. About two weeks later, after my second full transaction was complete, I received a random bag of Ayahuasca in the mail. Could it have been from the DMT seller? I PM’d him to ask and he knew nothing about it. Odd, but okay. I guess I’ll take some free Ayahuasca. After all, one should not seek it out; it will always come to you when the timing is right. I have another example of an incident of that happening that is not SR related, but maybe I’ll share after this SR encounter is written.

Shortly after that, a third incident occurred. This time I got a mystery bag of white powder, clearly shipped again from the Netherlands. I had just ordered some MDMA (white powder) and some 2-CE (also white powder), as well as some crystal DMT (also white powder but from Mexico). But both were shipped from the Americas, although processed in Amsterdam and had already arrived. The DMT was still in transit, but it usually took 2-3 weeks. And this bag was clearly from Amsterdam and had no other markings. I smelled it - (definitely not DMT) and I tasted it - thinking I might be able to recognize its bite, but I couldn’t. It definitely didn’t taste like regular Molly. It was kinda weird.

List of postings for MDMA and related products for sale. One of the best deals on the Silk Road.

I was also having problems logging into the Silk Road to ask the sellers. As it happened, Tor had updated and I needed to install and customize the latest version– which changes frequently. Once I was able to get everything back in working order, everyone said their orders went out exactly as outlined. No extra freebees or anything like that. So, I did what any good druggie would do, and I dosed the white powder. On a microgram level – as to avoid complete overdoes on some odd RC. It definitely got my high as a kite, pretty rolly. But not the same as the previous MDMA I had ordered. Or any I had ever taken. My guess is it was some sort of RC made to simulate MDA or MDMA, but with a slight psychedelic effect. I don’t know. Whatever…. Can’t complain about that one I guess? If I knew what it was I would have ordered more.

All of that occurred in the course of about 6 weeks but then eventually things cooled down and the unexplained mailings stopped arriving (besides my continuing SR orders). Most orders have been smooth since then. Next I’ll go into some more explainable situations that happened. But as for these incidents, I doubt I’ll ever know what was going on. Was it a string of related events? Was it one person behind each? Or were they independent, some perhaps by human error. Overall, I received more free drugs in the mail than Imodium. That was a onetime occurrence. So If the Universe wants to send me free drugs, I decided do be it! I will gladly and humbly accept them.:)

Next session I’ll go into buying shrooms, GHB, opiates and some other RC’s. I really need to put another purchase in soon…. I just need to deposit some more bitcoins. At least the process is much easier now that it’s established. I just have a lot of live, in-person drug dealers that I love using, but I can’t get the same type of obscurities like I can on the SR. I’ll keep this board posted as I do purchase.

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